Sheesh. I have the weekend off -- two whole days/nights -- and I have made little to no progress on anything. I think it has to do with forcing it instead of listening to/feeling it...whatever "it" is. I also decided against posting the things I had half-thought I'd post yesterday.
I'm not feeling defeated or depressed or anything...I just feel like I have been trying too hard today to accomplish something rather than just putting in some good work on existing things. I have several collages that I would like to finish up but they are not ready to be finished yet...and I tried to push it.
Here are two examples of the "she-swings, she-misses" attempts.
This first one isn't exactly bad, it just feels "off". In general I want it to be done, I like it mostly...but I feel that there is something it needs. (It looks different in person.)
|The giraffe-ish guy's companion "before"...|
|...and "after". I only wanted the suggestion of a face...I want the viewer to fill it in for themselves.|
|Overall view in the honkingly heavy/huge frame that the painting was in when I bought it at the estate sale -- I kind of sort of like the silver/gold leaf-like finish...but there is SOMEthing missing.|
Example number two...one more sampling of why this non-painter should not attempt to paint...LOL. I think maybe I should stick to adding color to collages by adding various papers. Tiny areas can be painted maybe, but not major parts...even holding my breath didn't work...ha ha ha.
|One of the few paints I actually LIKE -- Lumiere Light Body Metallic Acrylics by Jacquard.|
|...and then I tried to mix up a color...|
|...which led to pulling it all back off again...except the Lumiere wants to mostly stay put.|
|Gah -- what an unholy mess!|
I swear to you I am not beating myself up about this -- I simply know my limitations. I should allow myself to paint (apply paint to) plaster cloth guys that require painting...but I really need to knock off the "oh, I will try again" stuff because while it does permit me to play/experiment/take up time, it also keeps me from actually doing any useful work on whatever it is I am subconsciously trying to avoid.
And I really just plain do not enjoy painting.
Now. I know how to start to fix things...and I am going to use the rest of tonight to listen.