Thursday, August 28, 2014

Day 240 - 365/2014

Day Two Hundred Forty

Today was a semi-regular Thursday with Sue...we went to the barn so she could refill her horse's supplement containers, we went to the grocery store...then came home.

I made a sort of a mini salad bar and we chose what items we wanted in our chopped salads and they were delicious.  Sue is still on crutches so she instructed me on the making of her salad.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Day 239 - 365/2014

Day Two Hundred Thirty-Nine

I am reserving this blog spot time because I just got home from restocking the Art-o-mat machine at LIFT but I have to run back out to do my "shift" at Sue's house.  I will update this post after I get home tonight (probably after midnight).

non-update (Thursday just before midnight):  I have a couple of photos for this post but I am not quite ready to update yet as a few things may have changed slightly...stay tuned.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Day 238 - 365/2014

Day Two Hundred Thirty-Eight

Today we got great news about Sue and her foot -- she can finally begin to put weight on it!  It has been seven weeks since she last did that.  Sue is making slow progress in her physical therapy sessions and her main therapist was saying things would begin to go a little quicker once she could put weight on her foot.  Sue's doctor wants her walking without the crutches in two weeks.  

I will have some news of my own tomorrow...stay tuned.

Monday, August 25, 2014

Day 237 - 365/2014

Day Two Hundred Thirty-Seven

Remember the upcoming show I was talking about yesterday...I have decided (this morning, after much thought) to not submit anything this year.  While I really love the 3 pieces I put on the disc, I don't want to just keep recycling the same collages into different shows. 

I am currently not able to focus enough attention on anything and I don't want to do anything halfway and then have to make changes later.  Things will be back to "normal" soon enough...but right now my attention is elsewhere.

Sunday, August 24, 2014

Day 236 - 365/2014

Day Two Hundred Thirty-Six comes some sloppy writing.  I don't know really what I want this blog post to be about.  My life is usually my own and I don't have a husband+kids family or 9-to-5 job that I need to deal with.  I pretty much set my own pace.  I have a certain routine and rhythm that is who I am.  When two things happened at pretty much the same time (my sister breaking her ankle very badly + the total closure of "my" section of the street I live on for extended road repairs) it really threw my little world out of whack.  I didn't realize just how much out of whack things have become until I had this weekend off and I tried to simply step back in and pick up where I left off.  Having a couple of days off has been good but it hasn't been enough to get  back into the rhythm...everything (except the road repairs that are finally done now) is ready to start over again tomorrow morning.  I can't just flip a switch and turn things on and off again...for me it is all about patience and listening and having time by myself.  I am sort of surprised at just how much all of this stuff has effected my creative flow and process...that's all.  I am also needing to deal with my own pain management and timing of medication(s) so that I am able to drive, etc...but I digress.

I wanted to work on at least one (or two) of the partially finished collages to submit to an upcoming show that I really enjoy entering...but that isn't going to happen.  I chose three other collages and I am very happy with them and if any get into the show I will be thrilled...absolutely is just not what I had planned.  These collages will definitely be retired after this, fingers crossed!

In the grand scheme of things all of this feels very trivial and silly.  I love my sister dearly and I am more than happy to set stuff aside until she can get around on her own and feel safe about doing it.  Nobody plans that sort of thing.  She has always been there for me when I needed something and now it is my chance to give her my time.  She is progressing pretty well with her physical therapy and her six-week post-surgical office visit is on Tuesday.  She will find out then if she can begin to put weight on her poor foot yet. Sue is a very active person and this is very hard on her -- allowing herself to admit that she needs some help -- and taking things slowly -- not to mention learning to walk again.

Anyway...I will eventually be able to go back to my regular routine sometime fairly soon.  Until then, I will keep on listening and making notes.  I am not done with the blog or my "art" or anything else...all of that is simply on hold for a bit longer.  AND, I am honestly not whining or complaining...I'm just sayin'.

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Day 235 - 365/2014

Day Two Hundred Thirty-Five

Sheesh.  I have the weekend off -- two whole days/nights -- and I have made little to no progress on anything.  I think it has to do with forcing it instead of listening to/feeling it...whatever "it" is.  I also decided against posting the things I had half-thought I'd post yesterday.  

I'm not feeling defeated or depressed or anything...I just feel like I have been trying too hard today to accomplish something rather than just putting in some good work on existing things.  I have several collages that I would like to finish up but they are not ready to be finished yet...and I tried to push it.

Here are two examples of the "she-swings, she-misses" attempts.

This first one isn't exactly bad, it just feels "off".  In general I want it to be done, I like it mostly...but I feel that there is something it needs.  (It looks different in person.)

The giraffe-ish guy's companion "before"...
...and "after".  I only wanted the suggestion of a face...I want the viewer to fill it in for themselves.
Overall view.
Overall view in the honkingly heavy/huge frame that the painting was in when I bought it at the estate sale -- I kind of sort of like the silver/gold leaf-like finish...but there is SOMEthing missing.

Example number more sampling of why this non-painter should not attempt to paint...LOL.  I think maybe I should stick to adding color to collages by adding various papers.  Tiny areas can be painted maybe, but not major parts...even holding my breath didn't work...ha ha ha.

One of the few paints I actually LIKE -- Lumiere Light Body Metallic Acrylics by Jacquard.
...and then I tried to mix up a color...
...which led to pulling it all back off again...except the Lumiere wants to mostly stay put.
Gah -- what an unholy mess!

I swear to you I am not beating myself up about this -- I simply know my limitations.  I should allow myself to paint (apply paint to) plaster cloth guys that require painting...but I really need to knock off the "oh, I will try again" stuff because while it does permit me to play/experiment/take up time, it also keeps me from actually doing any useful work on whatever it is I am subconsciously trying to avoid.

And I really just plain do not enjoy painting. 

Now.  I know how to start to fix things...and I am going to use the rest of tonight to listen.

Friday, August 22, 2014

Day(s) 230 to 234 - 365/2014

Day(s) Two Hundred Thirty to Two Hundred Thirty-Four

Whoa.  These last few days ran together in a blur.  I basically wen to Sue's, stayed with her until her husband came home from work, then came home and (apparently) crashed.  I'd get the cats fed, have my dinner, then wake up in my chair in front of the (turned off) tv.  Tonight Terri came by after her work and we went up to Tuscan for a quick bite and then back here for some conversation and then she left and I sat in my chair and suddenly I am startled to find that it is a few moments before my midnight posting deadline.  Whoa.

I will try to do a recap tomorrow...I actually DO have a few things to post.

This is just an "I'm-not-dead" check in.
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